We'll Get There

I don't know how we'll get there, but we will. I know we will.
Second term is over. I might have failed classes. I pray that I did not. I am not allowed to.
I was give the chance to play the lead role for this term's production. They just gave me the role. I wasn't given the chance to think about it or to turn it down. Or maybe I was just too scared to. So I accepted it. And it was a disaster. Well, to me it was. Most likely, to the rest of the guild, too. I was never able to do good because I was never really able to totally love what I was doing. Of course, that character would always have a special place in my heart. I've fallen in love with it. Maybe I didn't have what was needed to portray him properly. Maybe I just didn't feel like it. Maybe I just don't have anything at all.
On a positive note, I got something I never thought I would. Like ever. My fantasies came to life. I feel so lucky and blessed.
Catching up on a lot of things I missed. I don't know what to do now. Should I quit? Should I stay? Why? Why not? It is still an uninvited guest in my life. However, I have fallen in love with it. I am attached. It will hurt when I let it go. I wouldn't know what to do with my life without it, but I know I'll find something now that I have something special to live for. It isn't perfect, but I want it to be forever.
My Christmas Wishlist: Books. All books.

• Raven's Gate by Anthony Horowitz 
• Freefall by Gordon and Williams 
• Deeper by Gordon and Williams 
• Closer by Gordon and Williams 
• The 39 Clues: Cahills Vs. Vespers: A Kings's Ransom by Jude Watson 
• The 39 Clues: Cahills Vs. Vespers: The Dead Of Nightv by Peter Lerangis 
• The 39 Clues: Cahills Vs. Vespers: Shatterproof by Roland Smith 
• The 39 Clues: Cahills Vs. Vespers: Trust No One by Linda Sue Park 
• Lord Of The Rings by J.R.R Tolkien 
• The Chronicles Of Narnia by C.S. Lewis 
• Lemony Snicket's A Series Of Unfortunate Events 
• The Kane Chronicles by Rick Riordan
• The Scarlet Letter by Nathaniel Hawthorne
• The Rise Of Nine by Pittacus Lore Jinx On The Divide by Elizabeth Kay 
• The Mortal Instruments by Cassandra Clare 
• The Infernal Devices by Cassandra Clare 
• The Secrets of The Immortal Nicholas Flammel by Michael Scott 
• Semptimus Heap Series by Angie Sage 

That's not yet everything. I just know. And don't give me boxed sets unless the series is actually done.